Saddest Thing in Love

I don't know why I'm doing this ?
But such is the state of my mind.
I know I should live for the future,
But I cannot put this past behind.
No matter how great the adversaries,
No matter how serious the strife,
For its full of your memories,
that I'll cherish for my life.....


When you said you wont talk to me,
I could not gather what it would be,
to live without a person,
who is same as me.
So I filled myself with hatred,
Just so that I don't feel the pain.
But my feelings for you could not go away,
and it just made me more insane.

Last time I saw you,
I wanted to tell you,
How much you have affected me,
How much you mean to me,
How much I'll miss you,
And wanted to ask you,
How can I ever forget you ?
I know I was short on compliments.
I know I was afraid to give commitments.
But It was not cause you weren't great.
It was just because I was afraid.
What if my life gets just crappy ?
What if I could not keep you happy ?
I wanted to tell you this and more.
But I could not, with you standing fore.
Cause seeing you just made me numb,
and all my sadness made me dumb.
So I sat there watching you walk away,
and I could do nothing but to stray
in my thoughts, in my memories,
searching for a new lease.
I tried to forget you.
I tried to get over you.
I tried, I tried.
Till all my hope died....


Now,
Whenever I roam outside,
I remember the night at lake side.
Whenever I'm in my room,
I remember your face in gloom.
Whenever I'm in my lab,
I remember your late night scrap.
Whenever I study,
I remember studying while talking to you.
Whenever I say something,
I remember saying your nickname to you.
I am still living a life,
But its not the same without you....


I thought the greatest sorrow in love was ,
To love somebody who doesn't love you.
But now I have realized it isn't true,
The saddest thing in love is,
To love somebody who used to love you....

Seminar.....

Here I am working days and nights out,
Coffee,cigarettes and symphonic shout.
Anything to keep me awake.
Anything to give me that shake,
that sever me from the doze,
and give me that pose,
Not to stop, not to rest,
And listen to my mind’s behest.
For I have listened to my heart more oft,
And been a prey to carnal craft.
I know I cannot remain awake till eternity,
To fall into her arms is my destiny.
But I cannot let peace in mind last,
Coz silence vivifies ghosts of my past.

It's a story of a man.....

It’s a story of a man who is finding answers to questions unknown

It’s a story of a man who smiles when people moan

It’s a story of a man who doesn’t want to want things

It’s a story of a man who keeps silence while he sings

It’s a story of a man who befriends animosity

It’s a story of a man who is curious about curiosity

It’s a story of a man who finds happiness in sadness

It’s a story of a man who finds logic in madness

It’s a story of a man who speaks true lies

It’s a story of a man who is still as time flies

It’s a story of a man who is disgraced by glory

It’s a story of a man who has no story

Never Say Die !!

Sometimes your dreams might be shattered,
Sometimes your soul might be tattered,
But you got to keep going,
You got to keep moving.
Coz all you dreams were not for nothing.
You might fail but always make another try,
Do whatever you want to
Say whatever you want to
But "Never Say Die".

Lonely Nights....

Lonely nights that I live
remind me of evrything that I've missed.
The love the touch....
OH! it hurts so much....
I wanna gain everything I've missed.

I cud have had it all when I had the chance
but I fell into a mystifying trance
my eyes were open
but I cud not see
I was hitting my own achillius heel

Now I can taste the ashes of my burning soul
I can feel inside a deep hole
Inside myself
Inside my heart
And I can see myself falling apart

It's killing me I'm dying
Its hurting me and I'm crying
I can't take it
I can't take it no more
And I often ask
what was it all worth for ??

Where I'm heading to....????

This isn’t the way I thought it would be,
This isn’t the way things should be.
But I haven’t got a choice, have I ?
But to accede to the words of life.

Sometimes I think to break the rules,
And to stop living life like fools.
But foolishness seems to me abstract,
When I see life with facts.

I walk I walk the twisted road,
Just to find a serene abode.
But I just don’t seem to find any place,
To take some breath with grace.

I haven’t got a clue what I should do,
I have no idea where I’m heading to.
But to find the answer is my destiny,
And to keep walking till eternity.