Lonely Nights....

Lonely nights that I live
remind me of evrything that I've missed.
The love the touch....
OH! it hurts so much....
I wanna gain everything I've missed.

I cud have had it all when I had the chance
but I fell into a mystifying trance
my eyes were open
but I cud not see
I was hitting my own achillius heel

Now I can taste the ashes of my burning soul
I can feel inside a deep hole
Inside myself
Inside my heart
And I can see myself falling apart

It's killing me I'm dying
Its hurting me and I'm crying
I can't take it
I can't take it no more
And I often ask
what was it all worth for ??

Where I'm heading to....????

This isn’t the way I thought it would be,
This isn’t the way things should be.
But I haven’t got a choice, have I ?
But to accede to the words of life.

Sometimes I think to break the rules,
And to stop living life like fools.
But foolishness seems to me abstract,
When I see life with facts.

I walk I walk the twisted road,
Just to find a serene abode.
But I just don’t seem to find any place,
To take some breath with grace.

I haven’t got a clue what I should do,
I have no idea where I’m heading to.
But to find the answer is my destiny,
And to keep walking till eternity.