Saddest Thing in Love

I don't know why I'm doing this ?
But such is the state of my mind.
I know I should live for the future,
But I cannot put this past behind.
No matter how great the adversaries,
No matter how serious the strife,
For its full of your memories,
that I'll cherish for my life.....


When you said you wont talk to me,
I could not gather what it would be,
to live without a person,
who is same as me.
So I filled myself with hatred,
Just so that I don't feel the pain.
But my feelings for you could not go away,
and it just made me more insane.

Last time I saw you,
I wanted to tell you,
How much you have affected me,
How much you mean to me,
How much I'll miss you,
And wanted to ask you,
How can I ever forget you ?
I know I was short on compliments.
I know I was afraid to give commitments.
But It was not cause you weren't great.
It was just because I was afraid.
What if my life gets just crappy ?
What if I could not keep you happy ?
I wanted to tell you this and more.
But I could not, with you standing fore.
Cause seeing you just made me numb,
and all my sadness made me dumb.
So I sat there watching you walk away,
and I could do nothing but to stray
in my thoughts, in my memories,
searching for a new lease.
I tried to forget you.
I tried to get over you.
I tried, I tried.
Till all my hope died....


Now,
Whenever I roam outside,
I remember the night at lake side.
Whenever I'm in my room,
I remember your face in gloom.
Whenever I'm in my lab,
I remember your late night scrap.
Whenever I study,
I remember studying while talking to you.
Whenever I say something,
I remember saying your nickname to you.
I am still living a life,
But its not the same without you....


I thought the greatest sorrow in love was ,
To love somebody who doesn't love you.
But now I have realized it isn't true,
The saddest thing in love is,
To love somebody who used to love you....